`JOnathan~~

Saturday, April 12, 2008

i realised that i am hurting others around me, especially my brothers, when they see me upset.
sorry. i know it's tough for you guys to...put up with my moodiness and all. sorry...
today, one of my brother allowed me to taste my own medicine, which sort of jolted me back to reality. another also spoke to me. i came to realise that, you know since it has happened, i should move on with life. and this is the point when i realise i have sort of hurt others who cared from me.

thank you, si min and tingkai. today's practice could have been worse without yall around.

indeed, i should learn to accept His plan, forget all the 101 arguments why i ended up in this state and what i have done to deserve all these, move on with life, continue to lead a meaningful and happy life, just like how life is supposed to be like.

still, occasionally, the pain will haunt me in my heart again, again and again. i must tell myself, "it's not worth it to waste my life away on this. ITS NOT MINE, so be it."
yes, i could still give in whatever position God has placed me in.

"I am still alive and well, because your Spirit is within me."

indifference, disappointment, betrayal , rejection, sorrow, injustice...enlightenment, new life, hopefully.

Jonathan posted at 11:12 PM

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