Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa) Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines I tried to look in your eyes I want a simple explanation For what I'm feeling inside I gotta find a way out Maybe there's a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors I don't wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain And bring on the thunder Today is a winding road Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa) Today I'm on my own I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know) And now I'm itching for the tall grass And longing for the breeze I need to step outside Just to see if I can breathe I gotta find a way out Maybe theres a way out
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors I don't wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope I'm wrapped up in vines I think we'll make it out But you just gotta give me time Strike me down with lightning Let me feel you in my veins I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain
Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go Whoa
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder, and I said Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors I don't wanna ever love another You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain And bring on the thunder, and I said Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder So bring on the rain Oh baby bring on the pain And listen to the thunder
i just love beautifully written songs (:
Jonathan posted at 9:12 AM
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
i didn't hear you wrongly. i know that You have great plans for me. Since the moment i was brought into first CIC meeting by a friend you have blessed me with, Vivian... Since the moment i committed CIC application and VJCO EXCO application into Your hands... By Your grace, i got into CIC as one of the 15, out of the numerous applicants, even though i am known to have a few other CCAs at that point of time... When i didn't get into VJCO EXCO. i was dumbfounded. It felt like hell to me. But you sent friends to be by my side --TingKai, Si Min and Lemuel, to sustain me through this period of uncertainty. It took time for me to pick myself up. it was truly a period of uncertainty. Are you trying to prompt me to spend more time and efforts in other commitments, other than VJCO? like CIC or Church? Did i hear you wrongly? Is this the greater plan You have set aside for me? I decided to give my EXCO speech for Vice-President post in CIC. I didn't know what to speak exactly but you spoke an idea to me through the mouth of others around me. You grant me great favour and by Your might, i was appointed to be the Vice-President of CIC 08/09. I can't wait for more of your plans for me (: thank You Lord. Hallelujah.
Jonathan posted at 10:25 PM
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Saturday, April 12, 2008
i realised that i am hurting others around me, especially my brothers, when they see me upset. sorry. i know it's tough for you guys to...put up with my moodiness and all. sorry... today, one of my brother allowed me to taste my own medicine, which sort of jolted me back to reality. another also spoke to me. i came to realise that, you know since it has happened, i should move on with life. and this is the point when i realise i have sort of hurt others who cared from me.
thank you, si min and tingkai. today's practice could have been worse without yall around.
indeed, i should learn to accept His plan, forget all the 101 arguments why i ended up in this state and what i have done to deserve all these, move on with life, continue to lead a meaningful and happy life, just like how life is supposed to be like.
still, occasionally, the pain will haunt me in my heart again, again and again. i must tell myself, "it's not worth it to waste my life away on this. ITS NOT MINE, so be it." yes, i could still give in whatever position God has placed me in.
"I am still alive and well, because your Spirit is within me."
indifference, disappointment, betrayal , rejection, sorrow, injustice...enlightenment, new life, hopefully.
Jonathan posted at 11:12 PM
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Friday, April 11, 2008
Dear friends, this is the 100th post of this blog! YEAH. definitely, i feel that it is SO NOT WORTH IT to talk about what has happened this week on my 100th post. i will just like to dedicate this very special post to a few people who have supported me through this tough period of time (and still supporting). My brothers: Si Min, Lemuel and Ting Kai you guys are truly my nan4 xiong nan4 di4. never tired of hearing me out and speaking words of affirmation to me. this 100th post on my blog, belongs to all of you.
